A place where I can live, breathe, talk and see

I couldn't help it.

Christmas made me happy.

Happy with the unexpected long holidays. Happy with the extra money :D Happy with the blockbuster movies played on tv. Happy with the laughter and happiness displayed on tv. Happy with the outrageous Christmas decorations all over the country. Happy with with the discounts. Happy with the joyful Christmas songs blaring in the radios..

So many little things made me happy during this time of year. I was literally brainwashed into happiness! But I don't mind. Because these good feelings are contagious, I tell you. :-) And I'm happy to infect everybody else with this happiness. :D

Merry Christmas everyone!

I wrote this as a note to myself. Men can't change. Whatever they say, whatever the excuses are, they just won't change -- and you just have to take it or leave it.

Men are like, .. Stones. You can't change the shape of a stone, especially with hard forces. You'll only break it, and it will left you with nothing. Sadness & loneliness, maybe. And hurting yourself along the way.

The way to change a stone, is with patience. Like water drips, everyday, for the longest time, but then you'll be able to see holes on that stone. Or you can shape the stone by chipping it, one soft thud at a time. And with patience, you will reach your goal. But never do it with full force.

Tonight I forget this golden rule. I know, and he knows-- that it's the best thing to do. But that stubborn mule brain of his got the better of him. As a result, disappointment ate me alive. And causing me an actual chest pain. :-( It reminds me how badly can emotional pain hurts your physical state of being. I forget that quite a lot.

Another problem is, can I accept him for what he is? Warts and all?