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My Dream

Monday, June 29, 2009 by kivaa


I know this is just the beginning for me & him. The beginning of our life together. Whatever the future has in store for us, we will hold hands, be strong for each other, grow, and we will fight together.





As one.





Facing whatever life's challenges ahead of us.

I have a dream. For me. For him. For us.

My dream is so big sometimes it scares me. What if I can't fulfill that dream> What if I failed? What if I ended up having to run ther course of this rat race, until the day I die?

I have a dream. And I will try my hardest to make it come true.
And if I failed, I won't regret it, because I already tried my best.

This is My Dream Home ..

Saturday, June 27, 2009 by kivaa



See the background? A lovely hill. Perfect!





Again, pay attention to the background.. :)





Imagine having this blissful view outside your window everyday in your life?



I love the cabbage planter. I might want to make a bigger planter box though ..



Water catchment area and a fireplace. Perfect!



Amazing view! And you could just roll your way to the lake!! *sigh* I'm in love.. :P



A long and winding road to the house, a chimney, and a perfect hillside location .. :) I couldn't ask for more. :)

Or course you can take a peek at the original posting here (http://www.studiohousedesign.com/landscape-room-lid-architecture/), after reading my obsession about the house.. :D

The Day a King and an Angel Dies ..

Friday, June 26, 2009 by kivaa




Since I woke up this morning, the news of Michael Jackson's death has been blaring from every media I tune in to. And it's the major topic of every conversation I made with people today. And then I heard about Farah Fawcett's death too.

I don't really feel sad at first, because I don't really liked both. But after being bombarded by the news all day, and people saying how sad they are, and how they have lost their life-long idol and a music genius and stuff like that, I kind of getting carried away and feel a bit sad also.

Or maybe it's because of my PMS. :P

How Development is Hurting, Not Helping, China's Poor

by kivaa

Climate change hurts China's poor from Greenpeace China on Vimeo.



Please take your time and see this video. Just a little reminder of that every irresponsible action you take, it will affect others in every corner of the world, maybe even these people in the video.

See the complete article here http://www.treehugger.com/files/2009/06/climate-change-development-hurting-china-poor-video.php

7 Modern Human Life's Principle

Sunday, June 21, 2009 by kivaa


This is a very valuable and easy to follow 7 precepts to live a green life by http://www.dothegreenthing.com/

1. Walk The Walk; You get from A to B without any C. Walk as often as you can. Or if it's really unbearably far, take public transport.

2. Easy On The Meat;
It’s delicious but it causes more CO2 than cars.

3. Stick With What You Got;
Resist the urge to buy the latest trends/ products and only buy what you REALLY need.

4. Turn down the central heating and turn up the Human Heat; or if you live in the tropics like me, try to manage to live with a fan and reduce your AC usage as minimal as you can bear.

5. All-Consuming;
The art of wasting nothing and using up everything

6. Stay Grounded; Instead of jetting your way around the world

7. Plug Out;
Don’t leave it on or even put it on

Bye- Bye Friendster

by kivaa



A couple of minutes ago I just erased my Friendster account. And a couple of months back I already erased my Coroflot account.

I can say that I feel really relieved. :) I want to limit my WWW exposure to a certain limit where it really necessary, and well taken care of. Like this blog, and my tweets. ;) And I want to make sure that I DON'T have any idle accounts.

But one thing that's bothering me, why Friendster is using the term of "Cancel Account", instead of "Delete Account"?

Me & My Pinhole Glasses

Saturday, June 13, 2009 by kivaa

Last weekend I bought this pinhole glasses.


I accidentally bumped into this glasses 2 weeks ago, when I was waiting for a friend, and I decided to waste my time at Daiso, looking at all the cool and quirky Japanese's answer to all of our life's needs.

And then I saw the glasses. Attracted by the ridiculous solid black plastic with evenly-spaced tiny holes replacing the lens, I start trying it on and read the back package. It says that the glasses can be used for an eye therapy to reduce far-sightedness, near-sightedness, astigmatism, and the likes of it. :P Having already promised myself to live lightly, and not to waste money on things that I'd only neglects after 1-2 times of using; I decided not to buy it that instant, but to research some more about this peculiar pinhole glasses, and make sure that it really worked.

Turns out that it is true! This glasses is a very cheap and non-evasive way to improve your eye sight. You don't even need a prescription to get one of there (I bought it at Daiso, remember? :P :D)

At the first time I wear it, the subtitle words on tv which usually looked blurred from afar, suddenly became clearer and sharper. :) But when I use it to read a much smaller text on computer screen, I can feel my eyes is working hard to focus, to get the clearest image for me. It gives sort of a giddy feeling on my eyes. Not the sort of feeling that I like, but I guess I have to take it since it's an important exercise to keep my lazy eyes well trained to focus. :P

But keep in mind that this pinhole glasses tends to block your peripheral vision so only use it when in stable environments. Do not use it while driving.


Me and my pinhole glasses(above).

So I guess I will try to religiously wearing this glasses for at least an hour a day, or whenever I watch tv or working on computer (at home), and I will post about the result within 1 or 2 months. :)

More links to enlightened you about this fabulous invention :
- Wikipedia
- Myopia.org

New In Town - Little Boots

Tuesday, June 09, 2009 by kivaa

I am LOVING this song !!!! :*:* Let's sing along !! :D

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Heard you’re New in town
Want someone to show you round
Well no-one knows this place just quite like me
Well I don’t, hang with the crowd
Where I go, were dressing down
I’ll take you where the music plays for free
So don’t be lie on people you meet
Cause no-one is safe in these streets

I’m gonna take you out tonight
I’m gonna make you feel alright
I don’t have a lot of money
But we’ll be fine
No, I don’t have a penny
But I’ll show you a good time
I’m gonna take you out tonight
I’m gonna make you feel alright
I don’t have a lot of money but we’ll be fine
No, I don’t have a penny
But I’ll show you a real good time


What I do, you think so far
Is it all your hoping for?
Does it live up to your every dream?
Or do, we disappoint
While you make the choice
When you wake up can you hear a scream

So don’t be lie on people you meet
Cause no-one is safe in these streets

I’m gonna take you out tonight
I’m gonna make you feel alright
I don’t have a lot of money
But we’ll be fine
No, I don’t have a penny
But I’ll show you a good time
I’m gonna take you out tonight
I’m gonna make you feel alright
I don’t have a lot of money
But we’ll be fine
No, I don’t have a penny
But I’ll show you a real good time

Cause I know how it feels to be alone
When strangers only make you feel apart
You never, ever felt so far from home
You never felt so far from home

I’m gonna take you out tonight
Im’ gonna make you feel alright
I don’t have a lot of money
But we’ll be fine
No, I don’t have a penny
But I’ll show you a good time
I’m gonna take you out tonight
I’m gonna make you feel alright
I don’t have a lot of money
But we’ll be fine
No, I don’t have a penny
But I’ll show you a real good time

I’m gonna take you out tonight
Im’ gonna make you feel alright
I don’t have a lot of money
But we’ll be fine
No, I don’t have a penny
But I’ll show you a good time
I’m gonna take you out tonight
I’m gonna make you feel alright
I don’t have a lot of money
But we’ll be fine
No, I don’t have a penny
But I’ll show you a real good time

Foreign Workers and Oompa-Loompas

Saturday, June 06, 2009 by kivaa

In Singapore, the position of foreign workers amongst the Singaporean society are a bit enigmatic, if not difficult. Singapore needs them, definitely. Since there's no Singaporean who'd like to trim the lovely 3318 hectares expanse of grass of this Garden City, nor laid brick by brick in a construction projects, or take the leaves & garbage out of the water reservoir's canal trap-gate soon after a heavy downpour rain.


It may seems like they were doing a measly job, but without them Singapore wouldn't look as effortlessly squeaky clean and well maintained as it is now. It's the small details that creates vast differences.

And on one sunny and windy day, on my way to the city, I saw a group of dark skinned man wearing red shirt & a safety vest crouching at a vast expanse of a well trimmed grass. That patch of land, was in the middle of nowhere. In Indonesia it would be just an unkempt government land, grow wildly and occupied with God knows what. But here, even the most remote piece of land is apparently, very well kept, thanks to the ever hard working and diligent foreign workers.


And it strikes me, that those guys looked very much like the Oompa Loompa. Physically & philosophically.


Oompa Loompas are the most devoted caretakers of Willy Wonka's Chocolate Factory (from Charlie and the Willy Wonka Chocolate Factory, written by Roald Dahl, my favorite writer :) ).

They're the factory worker, the entertainer, the cleaner, the guard, the gardener, the taster; everything! However invisible they are (because of their petite size) there's no doubt that they're the life and blood of Willy Wonka's factory.

And Willy Wonka pays them with nothing but chocolate. Because apparently, the Oompa Loompa worshiped chocolate.

Compared to the situation in our world, where as the only thing that these 'Oompa Loompa' (and the rest of the human kind) ever worshiped, is of course, the greatest God of all - money :)

Q of the day : Does penis size and shape changes through evolution?

Friday, June 05, 2009 by kivaa

The question above, I posted on Ask Yahoo!. I love Ask Yahoo!. I can ask just about anything, got an amusing answers along the way and boy I do have a lot of questions.

So, I just want to share my best answer by a guy called ieguy.


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Actually, yes, penis size has evolved over time - that's one reason why humans have the largest one in the primate world.

Your statement, though, that Darwin somehow said that humans are evolving into something more appropriate to modern technology is in error. Natural Selection doesn't work that way. If human females, however, begin to preferentially choose males with larger, smaller, purple, crooked, or whatever penises and thus provide a selective advantage to such males that they leave more descendants - then that would drive a change in genotype and thus likely in phenotype and thus you would have a change.

Of course, don't forget that the female would also be under selective pressure for changes in their genitalia as well - it would have to be able to accommodate those crooked, larger, etc., males. (Males would have to accept and be willing to mate with any such females as well) AND the young they have would have to have a selective advantage come the next generation and so on.

5 things a woman should do to keep her man happy

Tuesday, June 02, 2009 by kivaa

This list is compiled based on my limited personal experience, and my 4 hours of reading Mars and Venue Together Forever (John Gray, Ph.D)(up to page 116 :D). I will read some more, and if there's any other interesting points I will subsequently update the post.

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1. If he emotionally withdraws from you, let him. Just make sure when he's back to normal again, you're there to greet him w/ a beautiful smile & an open arms.

2. Always appreciate whatever he has done for you - even the smallest favor - and make sure he knows. So he'd also know that he makes you happy. This exercise is very easy. Just pretend that you're with a dolphin and you must give him "reward" (in this case is appreciation) each time he does a trick for you. :)

3.
When you feel overwhelmed and tired and need to complain and and nags your mind out, do warn him first. Say things like, "I had an awful day, would you take a few minutes to just listen? You don't have to say anything and I will feel better!". By saying things like this, you give your man a chance to just relax and listen to your problems and thoughts without actually needed to give us any solutions. Because we want him to understand, and not to give us unnecessary solutions. If you didn't warn him before, he'd be unprepared, and all he'll give you is his natural reactions of giving solutions. Which we don't need. Or worse, he'll feel that he's the source of your problems and unhappiness and will get defensive in the end. And the supposedly "nurturing communication" sessions will go haywire. :P

4. Understand that when a man flicks through tv channels, it's his way to relax his mind. So let him.
Also any kind of physical activity is a good exercise for him to channel his stress. And when he's back, he'll be a much better man than before. So just let him.

5. Never obsessively ask him about his seconds by seconds activity, and constantly check/text/call him on what he's doing. There's a limit on this, on of course there are also the special circumstances, so just watch it.

The Facebook Episode

by kivaa

i haven't open my Facebook account for a few days. I usually only open whenever there's somebody added me as their friend, or if there's anyone commenting on my pics or on the pics that I already commented on before.




Anyway ..




Just now I checked on my FB account. And at the first page, is of course, the status updates from my friends, and their latest picture uploads also.


And I feel a bit depressed. *sigh*


To know how your friends are doing, well yeah, that's good.
To know how well your friends are doing, while you're still sitting on the same lump from last year, well .. that's not so good.
To see that your friends are hanging out together without inviting you, well, that's not so good either.

I know I may sounds like some ungrateful green eyed jealous monster.. which I probably am. :D But I just can't help it.

And honestly, I still don't understand how people can get so addicted to Facebook.



Is there any social networking websites out there where I can simply count my blessings and constantly reminding me to be grateful for what I have ?

"A Walk Through Hell" by Say Anything

by kivaa

I heard this song on the radio today, and loving it! :)

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And if I could swim
I'd swim out to you in the ocean,
Swim out to where you were floating
in the dark.
And if was blessed
I walk on the water you're breathing,
To lend you some air for that heaving
Sunken chest.

'Cause they chose you
As the model
For their empty little dreams.
With your new head
And your legs spread
Like a filthy magazine.
And they hunt you
And they gut you
And you give in.

And if I was brave
I'd climb up to you on the mountain.
They led you to drink from their fountain
Spouting lies.
And I'd slay
The horrible beast they commissioned
To steer me away from my mission
To your eyes,
And I'd stand there
Like a soldier
With my foot upon his chest.
With my grin spread
And my arms out
In my bloodstained Sunday's best,
And you'd hold me
I'd remind you
Who you are...
Under their shell..

I'd walk through hell for you.
Let it burn right through my shoes.
These soles are useless without you.
Through hell for you
Let the torturing ensue.
My soul is useless without you


And if they sent a whirlwind,
I'd hug it like a harmless little tree.
Or an earthquake,
I'd calm it,
And I'd bring you back to me,
And I'd hold you
In my weak arms like a first born.

I'd walk through hell for you.
Let it burn right through my shoes.
These soles are useless without you.
Through hell for you
Let the torturing ensue.
My soul is useless without you (through hell for you)


(through hell for you) without you
Without you (through hell for you)
Without you (through hell for you)

Now, I've walked through hell for you,
What's an adventurer to do
But rest these feet at home with you

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